Saturday, October 15, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
Well, my chapter of life at Hawaii Animation Studios has closed. I am now yet again standing in that artistic fork in the road, where I wonder where will I end up next? I have now been animating for about 10 years, and the cocky side of me thinks it should be easy by now to just walk into the next gig. But that is not the case, There are many that do what I do, and do it better, the fight to be seen as an artist is one I fear I will always be fighting. Get better! Work harder! Learn new software! Fight Fight Fight! And why I am certain this fight is in me, I also have this scary feeling of just leveling out as an artist, reaching a point where there is no more growth. Which to me is a fucking nightmare because I have so many high hopes of where all this is going to lead. All the packing up, and moving from city to city, resetting my life over and over. Something big needs to happen! I also get scared because even though I know I have fight left in me to reach my goals, I also have thoughts of living deep in the woods where nobody can find me, and just create art and get out of the hustle lol. I gave up a long time ago trying to plan what was to come next in my life as an artist/animator. Instead, I welcome the unknown, I look forward to the possibility of a great new opportunity! This will be my last month in Hawaii, it has been a great year and a half, I never expected to be here. Where will I go next?...
To mark the event of my unemployment, on my final week of work, I went to get my very first tattoo. It is of an animation disc, with the word, dream under it. It is to remind me, why I have moved from state to state, packing up one life to start a completely new one somewhere else. It is a reminder of the dream, the dream to become great at what I do, and to never stop chasing my dreams.