Monday, October 01, 2007

Hard Times

So no unfinished drawing today, or new 3d animation, just me putting my thoughts down. Its been a really hard couple of months, I packed up a nice comfy life in chicago, a place that just embraced my from the second I packed up my lil ford focus and left my moms house for the last time, and entered the city. Granted it took some adjustments, just like I am hoping it will here in Dallas. I hope. Its just been really hard, and things come out of nowhere and just knock you on your ass. And you go home with nobody to talk to about it, nobody to tell you its going to be ok, its just you, alone, alone, alone. LOL that shit is hard.But I remind myself every day why I took this step, why I uprooted one life to try for another, and its for the very reason that if you stand still your not living. My father taught me that, and anyone that really knows me knows that I don't exactly have the best relationship with my father, He has been in Korea for as long as I can remember, making toys doing his thing. No matter what though he taught me how to dream and to keep my head up, and is why I am a animator today, and is why there is a thriller pic on this entry. When I first saw thriller I thought wow!! How did they transform MJ into that wolf!? I wanted to know! My Dad Showed me, he grabbed a dictionary and in the lower corner he drew a normal mans face, then on to the next page, and the next, slightly distorting him as he went. The end result was a wolf man. He then sat it in front of me, flipped the pages and I was fucking trippin out! I was hooked. He took a simple flipbook to explain the process of what I was seening in thriller. Why am I bringing all this up now? Inspiration, I need it, and the fact that I am going to michigan for a reunion this weekend, and on the way back I am going to see my father for the first time in about 6 years. So with these upcoming things, I find myself thinking about life, and hard times and why it is I do what I do? Why am I this vulgar sometimes funny, twisted, animator? How will I handle the almost for sure hard times to come? I look forward to sitting down with my father and having a beer with him and talknig to him about this shit. I am not the best writer and this probaly will make no sense when I go back and read it, But like I said, its just me putting my thoughts down. The thoughts that won't get me arrested! Those thoughts I keep to myself! LOL



Don, living in New York right now I can relate to a lot of what your saying here..... truth be told....the big City has the ability to be the loniest place in the world buddy......
Just have strap on the Helmet and Press onward.


Miah Alcorn said...

Heya Man. Sorry to hear that things in Dallas are getting off to a rocky start dude, but don't worry it'll get better. I remember what it was like moving up to Chi-town to work with you guys, leaving my family and the comfort of my routine. I know better than most the loneliness that your talking about... the kind that can consume everything that you think about and do. But I also know better than most how great it can be doing something different... how wonderfully things can work out when your willing to put yourself out there, willing to sacrifice and take a risk. Alli, the kids, and I have gone thru some pretty crazy times over the past 2 years or so, and when things have been really tough and I'm ready to pack it in and call it quits, Alli always says," nothing worth fighting for is ever easy".. and I really do believe that to be true dude. Right now your just going thru the heavy lifting period... the part of a transition where your nerve and your faith in what your doing is being tested... sometimes it's hard to see the brighter side, but just know that it does get better man. Your gonna kick butt at whatever you do b/c you always give it 100%, wether it's slot machine pitch material, or animating your first scene for Pixar I know your gonna rock man! Keep the fooz alive dude! Later tater.

Dustin A. Foust said...

Great blog dude! Other than the great art work you do, I love your honesty. It's nice to see an artist speak from the heart and not sugar coat everything. Pedro and Miah said it best. Stay strong dude! We all have to push through it. It's how we respond to it that makes us great. Good Luck to you and please keep posting. Your post will keep all of us going.

Anonymous said...

Hey Don,

Just saying hey. The switched me and Jim, so now I am working with your boy Ben.

Take care,

Dan Segarra said...

Hey man,

I can sorta' relate too... being away from Jasmin for 4 months while I was in New York and all. It was tough times for me, similar to what Pedro said... NY is a HUGE city with tons of people, but with all of those people it was still lonely. It really is hard to get used to but don't worry man, you'll grow from the experience. Your work will get better and like Boob told me before I left... it'll grow ya' up fast.

It's good. Change is good. Seriously, you decided to make goals and take risks. That's something to be proud of because that alone is hard for LOTS of people. Keep going man! Do Dallas and do it with your whole heart.

- Dan

Dan Segarra said...

Yo man!

Looks like I'm gonna' be joining you in Dallas. :) I just accepted an offer to work at Reel FX. We should hook up when Jasmin and I get situated. You gotta' show us the sites.

I start in the beginning of December. So hopefully we can get together sometime after.

See ya' soon man!

- Dan